love, marriage and a baby carriage.. and of course, in-laws

the reason why i want to get married is that i found the guy i could get married to. he's almost perfect--okay, well, right now, he seems to be the caring guy i'd lke to have around me. that's coz he knows what i like and dont like and he seems to understand certain things about me that my relatives dare not understand. i just hope he follows throught with his plans of becoming a bigger and better person. i also hope our partnership may withstand time.
my next concern is my fear that my god won't bless me with kids. i really hope he does. i know my future husband wants one, and i'm pretty sure he wont hate me if we wont have any. i'd love to have a mini-me, though. i want her to be as talkative and smart as the kid i used to be. if god makes her brilliant, i wont complain.
on in-laws. i dont like the idea of having to paste a polyester smile on my puckers. well, they havent done anything that could destroy my idea of being part of their family, except that time when they've banned me from their house coz i might run amuck after their stupid impoverished neighbor called me fat, and that time when they said that my boyfriend wont buy me a new wedding gown, but rather borrow some person's gown, and that time when their favorite quack doctor thought i was fat and warned me that overweight pigs had a difficult time giving birth. so there, i fear the idea of being around commoners who feel they have the right to be rude, stupid and spontaneous. i feel that if i hang around people who are neither my relatives, schoolmates, close friends, i would expose myself to people i dont like.