i am stressed. freakin' out even. i'm also sad coz nobody believes in me. even my closest friend. u felt that my i.q. sunk below sea level and my e.q., worse. i dont know what to feel. i cant summon tears, they're just not there. i cant be angry again and let bad karma raining on my parade.

mother thinks i can make it coz she feels i can. i want to believe her.

apologia

look, i just want world peace. i bash because i detest the raging violence and treachery in our world. why are we all driven by resentment and by the idea that one race should reign supreme and allow tragedy to befall on others.

what there is is a world of hate, a world of need and a world of selfishness. this is sad.

i rant because i am sad. i rant because of my disappointment in my inability to do something about my beloved society.

my friends, should my ramblings offend you, i am truly sorry. my ramblings were my verbal defecations in writing.